Although it probably won’t be an issue, I thought I’d post an advisory to readers that, should I not post this weekend, don’t be surprised. I’ve gone digging around in my computer and rediscovered a game I haven’t played in ages (so long, in fact, that the server wouldn’t even let me log in or update my game – I had to download a completely new one). The game is called Eternal Lands (EL for short) and is a free-to-use, massive multiplayer online role-playing game (MMORPG) … you basically wander around with your character, hunt stuff, make stuff, sell stuff, harvest stuff, dodge or kill monsters and spiffy stuff like that. The maps are huge, the ‘world’ extensive, and there are people from all over the world in there to chat with. It can be quite addictive, quite fun, and sometimes also quite boring.
It had been so long since I last played, I was surprised to see that my old character (Gorm) still existed. Unfortunately, my character has no cool weapons, armor or even very much money, since I gave all that stuff away the last time I played (I thought I’d be gone long enough that my character would get dropped, and I figured it would be a shame to see all my gear go to waste). So now I’m stuck with the dilemma of whether or not I want to just start a new character over from scratch, or try to rebuild money and gear with my old character. It’s pretty tough – my Gorm character can kill wolves without weapons or armor, and it takes a while to develop a character to that point (basically lower intermediate, if I’m judging correctly).
Anyway, I know all of this has nothing to do with bipolar disorder – at least not directly. Lately, especially after my post yesterday about how my mind works, I’ve been pretty unfocused and scattered. I’ve had plenty of energy, at times, but no motivation to use it. Hanging out in a game for a while, although it achieves little in the way of productivity, is still a compromise. I know that probably makes no sense at all, but like I said, I’ve been pretty unfocused and scattered ….